Saturday morning..woke up a bit blue. Need to fix that. Feeling somewhat lonely. Strange how there are periods of time you feel ok about being alone and making your way alone and then there are times where it just hits you. Started yesterday when I was watching this movie about this couple that survived all sorts of issues in their marriage and worked it out in the end. Mad at myself that I didn't see someone like exh coming in the beginning. How I could have gone back over and over and looked th other way so many times thinking he will change.

Rainy weekend here. Kids will be gone in a few hours so its just baby and I.

Smile..smile...smile.

Oh exh is supposed to come this morning too. He managed to come for 35 minutes yesterday. He did say that his d15 was at his house sick waiting for her mom to pick her up. She came home to his house from school for an hour. He said they are not getting along and she never stays there....why does that make me feel good? Why does the fact that his d15 is pulling away from him make me feel good? I would be sad if it were my d doing that.


Me: 46 FWS: 36
Married and Divorced 4/07, Pregnant 7/07,False R 7/07
Baby Girl born 3/08
Kicked him out because OW: 7/08
5/10 He realized what he had and lost.
Moved home! REMARRIED 3/14/11!!