IT’s been a long Road. Allot has changed since the beginning of this journey. When I think about all of the possible turns I could have made along the way. Heck I could have just said forget this and ended everything way back then. I hear that God never gives you a burden you can’t handle. He must have real faith in me. From losing my leg in a car accident in my youth. Giving me two beautiful Daughters just to have my X wife turn to drugs and leave me to take care of them my myself. To giving me my next wife to help me and give me a son just to have her stray to test me again. He must have great plans for me. Things seem weird now that I have stopped looking for work and have made plans to go back to school. But I tell ya even though I may be getting a gov. Grant they sure do not make it easy. I have had tons of paperwork to fill out. But the good thing is W is helping me fill stuff out.. I almost wanted to just tell her I don’t need her help but I started thinking that maybe...just maybe this is going to bring us closer.She offered and I told her I could do it but if she wanted to help she was more than welcome IT’s funny that I am mostly self taught. I can take apart almost anything and put it back together working. I can fix things. That is what bothered me most about my sitch. I could not “Fix” it. It seems that w is impressed with my going back to school. I have to admit that I am doing it for myself but I does make me feel good that W is kind of looking up to me now. Like she is proud of me. Well I have to go I just needed to “talk”. I am finding less and less people to do that with. I think most of the people I used to e-mail have moved on. So take care everyone.. Things do get better.
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
Doc, thanks for the update. I follow your sitch quite often and I look forward to the updates. You have been an inspiration to me. This is a long haul...I believe it's longer than a marathon. You are a very patient man. God is going to bless you (and your family) beyond anything that you can imagine. Please keep posting.
Hope you are feeling better... Still have that black bikini?
I had an interesting day I guess. My second cousin twice removed (or something like that) mother died and the funeral was today. We are not really close but family is family. Anyway my W went with me to the funeral. (A catholic funeral and she is not catholic). It surprised me because she very seldom goes to any funerals on my side of the family. But I have to admit I probably surprised her last month because a cousin of hers had a b-day party for her son. Not many people in her family get along with her cousins husband and I normally don’t go to their kid’s b-day parties. But W mother who would normally go with her was not feeling well so I went so she did not have to go by herself. Tomorrow I have an appointment with the councilor at the collage to get the paperwork started. I heard back from one federal grant and I was not accepted but I really did not want to use that one anyway. I am still waiting and should hear this week from the other grant. Tonight I received a phone call from a guy that still works where I used to work. They are hireling Temp workers there and if I applied I would probably get hired back as a temp meaning for a one year contract. It is a hard choice to make but I told him I was going to wait to hear from the TAA grant first. I figure with all of the people in my area still getting laid off I should use this opportunity to better my hiring credentials Well even though W is still sleeping in her office things are really starting to look good. Of course I have my bad days and there are times when she says something that I could take personal I am aware of it and try to let it go. The wedding is in two weeks….That is when I am going to move out of my “safe zone” and see where it gets s me…
Later Doc
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
I look at these for "fun" but sometimes..........?
Pisces By Rick Levine You may feel as if you've exhausted your magic, but nothing is further from the truth. You are at a crucial turning point today as Mars turns direct in your 6th House of Work. Your dreams continue to be bigger than life, yet day-by-day they will seem to inch away from the night and out into the light of day. Keep the faith; you are closer to success than you realize.
Well in about a half hour I leave for my work at the Redwood food bank handing out food to the needy. (I am still on the right side of the table so far) Then at 3:00 I have an appointment with the college councilor… Let’s hope my horoscope is spot on today “Keep the faith; you are closer to success than you realize.” Doc
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
It went great. I had butterflies in my stomach the whole time . I am realizing I am getting close. I have a little bit of paperwork left to do and I do not know if I did get the grant yet but the councilor wants to just assume I did (without signing a contract) and get all of the paperwork in order so that when I get the acceptance letter I could start classes on April 12th
A Side note.... This move is doing wonders for I esteem and I feel that W is in her own way admiring me for doing this. Or maybe she sees me being more confident and likes it I have had thoughts of “what if I fail” but I am learning to keep them out of my mind and think POSITIVE... Guess I have been reading too many books about ‘If you think you will be late… YOU WILL BE LATE”…or ‘If you think your marriage will fail… IT WILL FAIL”
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
. I am realizing I am getting close.