Well...today is the day he is taking me to the airport (picking me up in an hour). He'll be staying at our house for two nights while I am away. He has been deciding whether or not to return ("for financial reasons") and stay in the guestroom while we get the house ready for sale, but is skeptical that I take seriously his unwillingness to work on restoring our marriage (and not try to 'persuade him'). I haven't seen him in a week (when he came and did laundry here last Saturday), but I have reassured him that I am 'at peace' with his decision, if still in shock by the whole WAS thing (he signed a year lease on an apartment and skated on 2/5).
I am looking good in a biz suit, wearing make-up (which I almost NEVER do - a physical 180 anyway!) and I have lost a whopping 30 pounds since he left a month ago (three cheers for the MLC diet!). I feel calm and happy even, since I know that the cats (our 'kids') will get some time with their 'Pop' while I'm away & I'm doing the LBS journey-work to the best of my ability.
I hope that the fine folks on the BB will send prayers and strength that I may maintain my calm, confident, friendly attitude for the short drive to the airport and that I continue to keep this with me when he picks me up and 10 o'clock on Monday night for the return.
I will continue to watch the BB for insights while I am away and continue with journaling and personal work on this DB quest for wholeness & healing...
