How do I act?

[Surviving03]

rr22, I think you may be right, I think it could blow over and maybe he wont be angry at me about it, I think he understand that this is just kind of how the military deals with things. I have been concerned that maybe there is a OW since he completely stopped contacting me, and I had emailed a lady that I know over where he is to ask her if she has heard anything about OW, but she has not responded to me (this was on facebook so I know she has been on there since I wrote her) so that made me nervous that she knew something she just didnt want to tell me. But I feel a little bit confident that maybe there is not OW since my husband felt very defensive that he hadnt "done anything wrong, this is just a personal issue between him and his wife" because he does know how the military treats situations of infidelity, and especially since he is in Iraq, you are absolutely not allowed to have sex while you are there, regardless of if you are single or not. So I thought, if he had been up to something he may not have been so quick to say "i havent done anything" he may have worried instead, oh crap, do they know??? But this could all be wishful thinking on my part. So far I dont have any reason to believe that there is someone else.

I almost cant believe that I havent wrote him in almost a week and that hasnt made him curious what im doing and tried to contact me.... and im trying to decide how i can "go dark" when he comes home. its very possible we will live in the same house, or he could also move out to the dormatory, or he could have me sent home to the states.

We had booked a cruise to celebrate him coming home from Iraq, and to celebrate our anniversary, and after he had said to me that IF his feelings change when he came home, he wouldnt fight it, I asked if he still wanted to take the cruise with me to get some time together, and he said No, he thinks it would be a bad idea. So, since I cannot get a refund, I was going to just hang on to the cruise and hope that he may change his mind when he got home (the cruise is 2 weeks after he comes back) or my other option is to change the name of the person and go with a friend, but the last day the travel agency gave me to have that option is only 1 day after my H gets home from Iraq. So I obviously wont know 1 day later if he might change his mind. So I think I am going to plan to go with a friend regardless, Im just nervous that might be the wrong choice, because either things improve with us, or things are sort of improving and then I up and leave for a week....or it could be me getting a life and doing my own thing not worried about what he wants or does. Any advise?