Thanks for the responses - yeah, I was doing OK with the GALing in general - did an open mic last month, have been going out to dinner with friends, going out to see friends' bands, etc. I've got one buddy (my band buddy) that I've been hanging out with a lot - he's still single. Come to think if it, Jan / Feb I was doing an OK job of it. But somehow, it hit me tonight - I really have nothing to do.
The other thing is I've been spending a lot of time on the phone, talking to old friends, family, etc. I'm not sure if that's really GALing, but it's contact.
Looks like I'm going to see the boys tomorrow, finish science projects. I talked to W tonight, things are a lot calmer. I'm not sure if any repair has happened, but at least we're talking. She had taken migraine medicine (meaning that she's really struggling with all this) so she was really mellow.
She said something like, the Bill she knew was so generous, nothing like what she's seeing now. I know that's from her perceptive, but it's really sad to me that what respect and good will we still have is eroding. I hate it.
I don't know Clinging, I spent plenty of weekends last summer / fall basically sitting in a chair thinking.
I've spent plenty of time here recently, reading, playing guitar, etc. I've got plenty to DO (of course, here alone).
I guess it's a matter of feeling that it's Friday night and there's nobody to be with - to go home to -
Anyway, I'll get up in the morning and walk to Starbucks - same as I've done many weekend mornings.
When I get back in the house, I'll have plenty to do with working on the house and yard. But again - that will be time alone.
Well, I have done it - called up my friends and said, hey, when are you free for dinner / lunch. I know what to do.
I have that feeling, though, that it's not the same. That being home with my wife, my family, was meaningful - hanging out with friends at a bar is less so.
Still rambling I guess. This is not a very coherent post.
