I'm finally starting to feel a bit numb after all of the intense emotions of the last few days. Today I just feel like giving up. You win H. You have your home, your freedom, your sex life, your image, and most of the time you don't have to deal with me. I hope it's worth it to you. You and your "complications" aren't my problem any more and I don't have to torture myself trying to understand you. I'll die a little death each time I have a new realization of the depth of your rejection of me, but that's just me living out the heartache of every single abandoned lover on the planet. Every hurt that my children will have to endure will stab me through my heart as I stand by them, helpless to protect them from the foundation of our family crumbling. My new life is uncomfortable, lonely, desolate, and confusing. I still have the compass but I've lost the map.
me: 42 | STBXH: 41 | T: 18 | M: 10 | separation: Jan 3, 2010 | they deserve better: S7 & D4 current thread: http://tinyurl.com/3y8sxcp .: first breathe, then heal, then start LIVING :.
