Looking for help with WAW

[mza8]

Maynard, thanks. I caught up on your sitch and I'm hoping things turn around for you too. I wish my W would be mature enough to tell me her issues with M but sadly she only wants to go to MC for closure. Nice huh? Keep strong with your sitch maynard and I'll do the same with mine.

Sandi, ok, I've calmed down today. I did the exact opposite today from my old habits. I didn't get depressed but instead I went to the house and spent the afternoon continuing to paint, etc. I did a lot of thinking about my sitch today. I was dissapointed with my intial reaction yesterday to have become upset by the letter from L. With everything that I've been through in the past with my company, a letter from a L shouldn't have bothered me the way this did. I know this is peronal though so I'll cut myself a little slack.

I am happy though that I did not contact my W until I gave myself 24 hours to calm down and think normally. I did some soul searching today and thought about what I really want. It is crystal clear to me that I want to save my M and want my W back. I cannot/will not let bumps along the way deter my from continuing to pursue my goal of saving my M with my W. I will be a strong man during this and show my W a strong man no matter what she throws at me. I think she will be surprised, make that shocked, by my changed reactions to what I would have done in the past. I thought to myself today, why would I allow this letter change my goal? The way my W feels today is not necessarily the way she will feel in the future.

Sandi, you are right that I took my W's recent friendliness as a sign of possible hope. I have to keep in mind this is a marathon and not a sprint. I must continue to be patient. I still believe that my W's friendlier demeanor is a positive thing. The more comfortable she becomes the better the chance for things between us to improve. Yes, I know that she is still on her path to wanting a D but I'm not giving up.

Today was a significant day for me as I did a 180 from breaking my depression of dealing with things like this in the past. Ok, yes, I vented yesterday but I didn't do it in front of my W. I continued today to keep moving forward with what I need to do. I will continue to do the right thing.

Still have not heard from my W. I'm sure she is still worried about contacting me now that she knows I received the letter. When she does contact me (I will wait to hear from her), she will she a strong, confident man. I will not even mention the letter. I will be upbeat and friendly towards her and continue to try and build on her increased sense of being more comfortable around me. I will still keep my stance on what I will and will not agree with her on certain issues. I will not be a pushover but will do what is right.

I've read so many sitch's that have gone to being almost D but have saved their M. So I have strengthened my resolve to continue to fight for my M and for my W.