I'm sorry, and I know it hurts...we all do. Don't be concerned about the future; keep your attention on today, and stay in the present moment. Live one day at a time. I think the working out is gonna be great for you in a lot of ways. Your goal, and acknowledgements, are excellent!
Peace out.
"Always go straight forward, and if you meet the devil, cut him in two and go between the pieces." - William Sturgis, clipper ship captain, 1830's.
