flowmom | need to commit to myself

[DiamondGirl]

Hi Flowmom!

I'm not sure if you've tried meditation type of things (I've just started trying it.. not consistently yet), but here's what I found really works for me.

I read somewhere that when you need something (not materially) like strength, peace from thoughts or overwhelming emotions, help focusing on something, that if you ask the Universe (or Higher Power, God, Great Spirit.. whatever your belief) *out loud* for what you need, you will find that you will receive it.

Now, I know it may sound hokey, but you and I are about 2 months different in separation dates, and this helped me immensely. I told my friend about it and she's done it as well, and has found it works with her too.

I've made it a habit on my drive home from work and to work that I spend the time talking out loud of the things I am thankful to the Great Spirit for, and asking for what I feel I need in the upcoming day or days. If I've been spending too much time focusing on H or sitch, I ask for the strength to focus on myself and my needs instead.

I asked for a sign at one point that I was in the right direction with my decision to stand in my marriage and the next day received news that OW told H she wanted to see other people. The next night as I was sitting by our local large lake two swans swam by.. Swans are rare around my area in the winter.. I can count on one hand the number of times I've seen them this time of year in my lifetime.

I asked for a guide to help me find where I should be focusing on in myself and life.. That morning as I was going to work, 2 deer literally pranced in front of my car. When I looked up the symbolism of animals, they related to family. So I took that to mean to concentrate on my kids and being stable and loving with them.

I hope I'm not overstepping boundaries by posting this to you, and I hope you can take it or leave it without offense.

(((Hugs)))