I just called my family to say that i loved them. I am am in too much pain not just from my M but my past. Too many secrets. I just can't do this anymore..
OLD THREAD-http://tinyurl.com/y98nuty Me 44 H 51 T 15 yrs M 9+ yrs No Kids "You may be deceived if you trust too much, but you will live in torment unless you trust enough."
I didn't do anything, but he sounded extremely mad and so I did try to call him this morning and nothing. I am scared of what he going to do and I want to give up on myself.
OLD THREAD-http://tinyurl.com/y98nuty Me 44 H 51 T 15 yrs M 9+ yrs No Kids "You may be deceived if you trust too much, but you will live in torment unless you trust enough."
DU!!! NO! Quit thinking this way! You did nothing wrong and as OP said, HE is the one that is depressed, HE is the one making HIMSELF angry! You are doing all of the right things for yourself! YOU have to look out for yourself...taking the paperwork and copying it is for your own protection! YOU will need those copies too! HE is mad becuase he didn't get his way yesterday! He will calm down and so will you!
YOU are a good person! YOU are worthwhile. Take this time to figure that out! Don't give up on YOU!!!
M48 H53 M16 T18 S16 D13 SS30 H drops bomb PA/8-30-09 H leaves 12-30-09 D filed by H 2-10 H asks to come home 4-11 Piecing
You sound very very down at the moment. I think you are right to keep taking your medication and see a cousellor tomorrow.
Your H has pulled you into his rollercoaster game which will emotinally destroy you. That is why all the advice given to you here tells you to pull away for your own health. Don't let him destroy you. It has been said many times but this is not your fault. You are lovely person and a good wife.
You cannot make things better for him. He has to travel this journey of discovery on his own.
None of this is easy and we have all struggled finding our place of peace as we walk our path. You can find yours where you can stand on the sidelines as your H flies by.
CW, OP, and LA - This has been a difficult morning because of the vial message my H left for me. Using the SH$$ word and saying that I stole his belongings! I did not, nor have I ever stolen anything. I am afraid that this is it for us and I don't do even now why.
I am very down and depressed because no matter what I do, I am at fault. I want my M very much, but how do I that when he is upset all of the time and spewing threats?
OLD THREAD-http://tinyurl.com/y98nuty Me 44 H 51 T 15 yrs M 9+ yrs No Kids "You may be deceived if you trust too much, but you will live in torment unless you trust enough."
I am a little scared because he bought this house and I moved before we got married. But according to my Lawyer, he cannot do this and this is considered the marital home and therefore is split 50/50. Als said we can get him on desertion (if I wanted) because le left without my knowledge and has not returned. By default, since I choose to remain in the home, there is no way that he can FORCE me out.
Felt a little better about that. But I really wanted to keep the peace that was supposedly building and now that is ruined and any hope for reconciliation is washed away.
OLD THREAD-http://tinyurl.com/y98nuty Me 44 H 51 T 15 yrs M 9+ yrs No Kids "You may be deceived if you trust too much, but you will live in torment unless you trust enough."
