Update - positive. Asked last night if H wanted to watch a show after I got home from rehearsal. Something we used to do, something we started doing again around xmas.
I acted as if we are back together. So I came in bubbly and happy from rehearsal. We watched a silly reality show and laughed. It was very positive. Perhaps having the papers signed is going to take the pressure off.
I came home just with love in my heart for H. Remembering the reasons I originally fell in love with him. I decided I was going to see him this way instead of a threat. It was a nice evening.
