CTH, I should probably clarify something. There were a few times when he would be cold towards me and act like he was happy-go-lucky and that I was inconsequential. Those times just killed me. But soon enough, he would be reaching out again.
I remembered when we were driving stepson to rehab facility and the rain was POURING down. We had just a week or two before that said that we were probably moving forward with a divorce, so I was trying to act all cavalier during the drive. But the roads were dangerous; the passes ended up being shut down. The 2.5 hour drive changed into an 8 hour drive because we had to take the long way; and then we were stuck on the other side of the mountains for a couple days....anyway, while I was driving, I was very scared because I was hydroplaning and visability was crap. My H took my hand and held it and also rubbed my shoulders while I drove. It was those moments that made me feel like there was a certain "something" between us...gee, my story doesn't help you..... I think my point was that just because someone presents a good front, doesn't mean that's how they feel inside.
Me-43 H-46 M 12 yrs 7/09 T 15 2 grown kids bomb 7/05/07 H moved out 8/04/07 11/22/09 told him I quit;let's get ball rolling Mid Dec- he isn't sure he wants D End 2/2010-Starting to consider piecing
