Separated, new baby, but still hopeful

[newmama]

P you are right. I know where I stand with me-not ready for a divorce. I am in limbo and I think it is normal for this kind of situation (big C scare) to make anyone speculate about their spouse and feel rejected yet AGAIN for not being asked to go when I offered.

Still I need a place to vent, even if means mind reading! And I know I could write it in a journal. But I do want help from time to time!

So I want to post something today and hopefully by doing so, can move on from it:

WH texted to say he was sore and wouldn't be able to visit S for awhile. He is checking with his dr. to see what she says aboout driving. I think this is excellent because if he was home with me, he wouldn't have to go a week without seeing his bundle of joy!

And one more thing-I think I saw somewhere that he won't be able to "do the deed" (or the w----) for 3 weeks? So it will be interesting to see what happens when they don't share that together...and if abstinence clears his head!

Last, my goal is first to bust the divorce but I know that WH is still having an A. I can't do anything more to end the A. That is up to him.If he ends the A before I lose my patience, please know that I am not going to accept him with open arms and no consequences! That is a whole other thread!

It really is up to me for how long I will wait. And I do not have to set a deadline. I will know when I'm ready!:-)

SO now that this cancer scare is over with, I will be back to GAL and I am ready to not worry what he thinks of me. BUT I will still curious about what he's thinking although I'm past obsession now. It will be more like a wandering thought every now and then.