Thank you. I read all the resources and had been reading a lot before I started by story. I dont know what else to do. I feel like moving is a way of taking care of ME and in doing so I am taking care of the children. IF I stay here and watch what will unfold, as he is divorcing me, he will do it ion my face, can I bare it, NO.... Just hearing him say he was interested in someone else while we are still married HURT like crazy. I think of the children, what if he has them around other woman too soon while he is in this confused state? I dont know, I feel like my entire family is there, all of them 3 sets of Grandparents, Aunts, Uncles, 100+ cousins...and its just us here....we used to be with Daddy but now he is gone, so its me and the kids.... WHY am I staying? For him.? I am committed to him and this marriage in my heart and will wait years as I know it takes that long....but WHY do I need to stick around and watch it. I am busy on me, in Alanon, counseling twice a week, read everything written on this, co dependency, detachment, etc. Drawing closer to God, very involved in my walk with God... I work out, I have always taken good care of myself.
He is SO ILL..... He has been in the ER for days, at appointments, I think he has a bleeding Ulcer. He had a panic attack the other day, chest all tight, nasuea, he thought he was having a heart attack, he went to the ER, doctors yesterday and again this am. I left him on my Co. insurance because he has NO money and I knew he was ill..... He Thanks me and wants to give me a HUG for it. He is always SICK, complaining of feeling awful, cant sleep etc... complains about bills, says if its not one thing its another and vents to me about it like I made this choice....!!!! but yet this is supposed to be the life right? Makes NO sense at all.
