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[awest1217]

CTH,

Thank you for that thought, but this is not an artificial deadline. He has to make a decision whether he comes home or he doesn't and we get a divorce. It may sound harsh because it has only been a year of separation and many people on this site have been going through this for years, but I have been going through the OW thing for 10 years really now 11 years. It is time for me to move on one way or another because for S and I, we need to be out of limbo.

S needs a consistent schedule he will get to see H. I need to be able to plan ahead without wondering if H is going to come along and ruin everything; say he will come and at the last minute not or plan something without him and then he wants to come along, etc. I have to plan what will happen with our house especially once I know what is happening with my salary. I may only be 27, but I deserve to find someone who is going to respect me. S is already learning that a father is someone who is around once in a while, which is setting him up to do the same thing as we gets older. I have thought about this a long time, and I feel it is time because this isn't a year situation, it has been years.

This has to stop so it isn't an artificial deadline. The owners sold the house and he has to make a decision because for all of our sakes, even his, we all need to move in some direction instead of spinning our wheels.

On a good note, he text me this morning and asked to come over right after work and then do pizza. Kind of sad though because this could be my last time going to friday night pizza. Also tomorrow is the anniversary of my grandpa's suicide and today is a little hard because it is the exact same lesson plans I had set up when I got the call that he had passed away.

Despite all of that, I feel great. I feel strong, happy, and excited. Spring has always been my favorite time of year because it is a new beginning and this year, unlike last, I really feel one way or another it is a new beginning for me.