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[awest1217]

2 hour delay today! Yeah, but since I woke up from the call I haven't been able to go back to sleep...at least S is sleeping extra.

H sent me a nice text last night saying he was glad I had a good day because I deserve it, good night, and love you. It was nice, and I think it bugs him that I have my life together and he is still all messed up. No matter what he chooses he is going to be miserable. If he comes home all he is going to do is mope about not being able to see OW. If he doesn't come home he is going to in like a month send texts about how much he misses me and wants me back. Either way he is never going to be happy which is sad. The only thing that makes him happy is his job right now. I am glad that finally is a place he enjoys, but it has always been number one priority to him. He is so much about how people perceive him that he doesn't care about anything else. No one at work or in his social network know what is happening so to them he looks like this awesome teacher who gets his students to improve dramatically all while maintaining a family. Not true at all. He doesn't open up and I think there might be some depression, especially given his younger brother fights it, but he won't go to counseling.

One week...and I can finally move on with my life and start making plans.