The journey begins

[ClingingToHope]

Mindfull, what do you mean by fuel their fire?

I ask myself every day if I'm handling this well with the girls and I guess I won't really know the answer until years from now.

My example is my parents. My mom tore my father down constantly. My dad never really said anything negative about my mom. I think my mom was very insecure about me because I was a sports nut just like my dad and she worried I'd end up moving in with him.

Funny thing is I never considered it. I also always blamed my dad for the D -- perhaps because I only got mom's side. Looking back now, my mom was dating someone before the D was final. That had to sting. They're both gone so I can't dig deeper.

Just writing that down makes me wonder again how I'm doing. D11 was asking questions last night and I was answering them. I don't want to cut her off -- that's what W is doing to her -- but I don't want to be campaigning for credit either.

Maybe I'm still sensitive from a few weeks ago when they told me they thought I left on my own. I was shocked. I told them, no, W asked me to leave.

I hate the idea of co-parenting. I've always thought we were a great team when it came to being parents. Lord this is going to be tough going forward.