Perfectly normal bro. You have watched the deterioration of your family as you knew. My IC told me it was grieving the M. Recognize what triggers your downtimes and learn from them. Don't run from them. Learn from them.
Gima, you're a good man, you will get through this. Don't beat yourself up over anything. You tried and continue to try and save your M and family. There is nothing on this planet more admirable. Give yourself some credit. Give yourself a break. Give yourself some quality time. Let your W go. She needs to do this. You'll be fine either way. Time will help you feel better. I know it sucks. But when you fight through all of it, you will be a strong, confident guy. Her problem if she doesn't see your good qualities. She'll regret it someday. Maybe it will be too late, maybe it won't. Get busy living bro.
Strength and Honor. You can handle this.
Mules
M 43 W 44 M 17 T 22 S16,12,9 Bomb 2/05/08 I served her 1/06/09 S'd 3/15/09 D'd 12/21/09
"Tough times don't last, tough people do." --My Dad to me years ago, me to my boys now.
