It wasn't going as well as I thought it was while there. W and I did all the things to build communication skills and seemed like we were becoming closer. Then she shows me an email she sent to OM while pacing the halls on the Saturday night, unable to sleep. Saying how in every situation she could think of, she was more relaxed and calm picturing the OM in it than me.
I think she showed it to me so that it hit home how serious our problem was. For a while I was thinking that the presenting couples had worse problems than we had, so if they could do it, so could we. But none of the couples was IN LOVE with another person who was not their spouse. It was a kick in the gut.
That said, it helped our communication skills tremendously, and really helped us get over some of the awkwardness of sharing how we truly felt.
WAW Using God Me-43 W-40 M-14 S-11 S-9 D-7 EABomb 5/09 Separated 12/09
