Dear LFA, Thinking of your and sending you lots of hugs! I just read the bit above about 4 year anniv of your mom's death..and so relate to how this pain of D brings up loss on many other fronts. My dad died over 8 yrs ago and I find myself missing him so much more as I go through this...it's loss all over again. Take care of yourself, nurture yourself, escape from the pain of D if you can right now. Know your mom is looking down on you and sending peace your way.
I also relate to the increasing sense of anxiety...I've been feeling it more lately too. Just be in the present moment. I remind myself often what I read on a post few months ago when I was having a tough time in Dec: 'the past is the past, the future is uncertain; there is only the present, stay in the present'
