All - Thank you once again. I did not send and started to have regret. But I did take the paperwork I needed to copy and I think the H was looking for them when he arrived. He called me at work again several times (I did not answer).
He said he was only going to be here to "divide things up". Not sure what he did because I was not here.
I am staying dark because his venom is what I need to stay away from. I was just very upset this morning because of what he said to me on yesterday.
I know I have survived a lot in my life (childhood abuse, death of my sister, etc.), but I didn't realize how unbelievably difficult dealing with an MLCer could/would be.
I am finally seeing a little clearly now, so I appreciate the help you all provided in getting me back on track. (Although I am worried the the H may be upset with me).
OLD THREAD-http://tinyurl.com/y98nuty Me 44 H 51 T 15 yrs M 9+ yrs No Kids "You may be deceived if you trust too much, but you will live in torment unless you trust enough."
Please stay dark. And find a counselor to talk to. You need a plan of what you're going to do when you're desperate. It was good that you posted your plan here instead of doing it. Remember the 48 hour rule. That's a gift that you give to yourself. We don't always act in our own best interest when we are in the grip of intense emotions. I almost sent several stupid emails this week so I how where you're at.
me: 42 | STBXH: 41 | T: 18 | M: 10 | separation: Jan 3, 2010 | they deserve better: S7 & D4 current thread: http://tinyurl.com/3y8sxcp .: first breathe, then heal, then start LIVING :.
Thank you FM. This site is a saving grace for me, because I would have done something completely and utterly stupid! And out of anger - which is never good.
I have an IC appointment on Saturday. In addition, I know I have been al ittle sensitive because of blood work I had 2 weeks ago. The results came back and my Dr called (not the nurse). He suggested that I needed to come in...well that visit is tomorrow morning. So I am a little worried and annoyed that things like this is what your spouse should support and be involved with.. I am hoping that it is good news.
I am not sure what my future holds with my H, but I hope I am better for it. Staying dark (as long as the H stays away).
OLD THREAD-http://tinyurl.com/y98nuty Me 44 H 51 T 15 yrs M 9+ yrs No Kids "You may be deceived if you trust too much, but you will live in torment unless you trust enough."
DU, I've been reading your threads, and just want to make a quick comment. Since you're seeing your doctor tomorrow, does he/she know what's happening in your M? I filled mine in about 10 days post-bomb when I couldn't sleep, and they were incredibly helpful. You might find, as I did, that a little medication can help you stay calm through the rough spots right now. I took xanax on a fairly regular basis for a few weeks, then only when I was seeing H, and now that I'm more centered, hardly ever. Something to consider, anyway.
M 65 H 64 T 39 & M 36 @ S 12/08 Two Ds
Do you know that the harder thing to do and the right thing to do are usually the same thing? Nothing that has meaning is easy. ~ The Weather Man
Twink.. Yes my Dr knows and prscribed Zoloft. I take only half a pill daily, but I did not take it over the last couple of days. I took a dose this morning before work and was okay later.
I just hate taking medication, but for the short time, I will continue taking. I just need to learn to breathe when I am upset with the H, and just meditate. That has helped in the past.
Thank you again for the advice.
OLD THREAD-http://tinyurl.com/y98nuty Me 44 H 51 T 15 yrs M 9+ yrs No Kids "You may be deceived if you trust too much, but you will live in torment unless you trust enough."
DU- I thought about you all day! I am glad that you were able to take deep breaths! This totally sucks doesn't it! I am glad that you didn't send that email but I bet it felt darn good writing it! I hope your blood work is not big deal! Praying for you!
M48 H53 M16 T18 S16 D13 SS30 H drops bomb PA/8-30-09 H leaves 12-30-09 D filed by H 2-10 H asks to come home 4-11 Piecing
My H left a message syaing that he is tired of being nice and that he is not going to be nice anymore and that I will have to leave the house.
What do I do?
OLD THREAD-http://tinyurl.com/y98nuty Me 44 H 51 T 15 yrs M 9+ yrs No Kids "You may be deceived if you trust too much, but you will live in torment unless you trust enough."
He left a message that I checked this morning indicating that he was no longer goign to be nice and that there will be reprecussions if I didn't leave the house. What did I do other than take paperowrk to be copied at Kinko's.
OLD THREAD-http://tinyurl.com/y98nuty Me 44 H 51 T 15 yrs M 9+ yrs No Kids "You may be deceived if you trust too much, but you will live in torment unless you trust enough."
It really doesn't matter what you did. If I recall he moved out...so unless a judge orders a decree for you to move out...don't. He will more than likely try to be nasty and rude to make you want out, but that is manipulation.
Don't reply to his message....it is kind of like a child throwing insults.....nothing much there.
