Running out of time.

[Cie la vie]

Not yet, give her time.

I may be overly demonizing my W at this point, don't get my wrong she has earned more than her fair share of it. But if I am to be honest I have thus far remained relatively unscathed during mediation.

If the issues negotiated to this point are not back traded on by my W and I am able to work out an advantageous arrangement with regard to the house I have nothing to complain about as far as the mediation is concerned.

I have my kids on a 50/50 basis, I'm not on the hook for support yet and I may end up staying in the family home and as a result providing my little ones with a familiar, stable and truly ideal environment for many years to come. If all of these things happen it will make moving on without the W a lot easier. Unfortunatly everything hinges on her and what she wants.

Like you I cycle through a myriad of negative thougths that I am getting better at controlling, of course that control can be derailed by the decisions and actions of my W. I look forward to the day when her presents in my life and it's affect on it are negligible.

I have to see the W in a few minutes for parent-teacher conferences. I am going to try really hard to smile and be a good boy.

Make it a challenge to yourself to come across happy, confident and as friendly as possible so it seems natural. You'll feel better as a result. Good luck at the conference.