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[bradley11]

she is totally nuts.

just called again-- wanted to tell me something funny...

but she is having a sad day... going to a meeting but doesn't want to...

then wanted to talk about "faith". i told her I thought faith is believing in something when you do not have concrete evidence.

then she said maybe we need to "let go" of the past... and stop holding on so tight to things.

I said that is what I have been working on. I've been trying to think of my life, trying to let go of the things I have lost.

then she said, "so is that what I should do too?"... by now she has taken control of the tone of the conversation. I say, "uuh yea... probably".

so she says, "ok... thanks for clarifying".

all over the place... all over it.

I did end the conversation cheerfully though.

but really... she's gonna let go or not-- if she wants to.. not based on anything I say.

right?

but I was feeling ok-- and she did a nice job of making me feel like crap again... but not majorly