But I wanted to show her that I was serious about loving her. That I wasn't fighting for her because of a vow, a faith, or kids. I was fighting for her because of HER, and that I love her.
Did you tell her this? That is powerful. She wants to hear your words fighting for her - it will turn her on ("it"/attraction.) Saying that with no expectation will make her feel special.
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.