I can't offer much but a hug. I would do the same thing you did, and, apparently Cutter/Chatter and P17 think differently. I don't know P17, but Cutter/Chatter is someone that has come through this process an amazing man of amazing character, with his heart NOT hardened through the process. Talk it through with him. Seriously.
My thoughts. I'm always avail when on the alt to throw ideas around, laugh to get your mind off of things, and/or cry to. I am your friend.
Me-46, D-21, S15, S13
After many years w/my head in the sand... I FILED Divorced 6/2011
The average woman would rather have beauty than brains, because the average man can see better than he can think.