The tunnel of darkness

[kjensen]

Thanks ladies!

H does have racing (negative) thoughts and that is why he is taking this meditation class, that has weekly homework and reading..not sure what that is all about, but if it helps him, I'm all for it. I think he isn't going to therapy anymore, but thats just a guess since he hasn't turned any receipts in to me to get reimbursed from our medical flex plan.

I'm pretty sure H is NOT having any difficult conversations with the girls. He acts as thought things are fine between them, and when their anger is very obvious, he gets mad in response.

I've come to terms with the fact that this marriage is over.
I'm trying to figure out which direction my life is headed, what I want to do, how will I afford to do what is needed or wanted by me and the girls..those kinds of questions..

I'm trying to get organized myself, mentally for the hard stuff ahead..mediation. Planning to take a weekly class based on the book "Rebuilding" that starts in a few weeks.

The commute really sticks in my craw so to speak, as someone almost hit me again this morning, this time on the way to work. I don't think I have a big bullseye painted on the cars!