As well as Michelle's bullet points in DR- the biased view...it will be a rollercoaster and you'll want to reach out- plus they (fam/friends) will always want to ask so they can help/fix things...you likely will not agree w/ their stance b/c they will be tired of seeing you unhappy.
So take it in stride- no pursuing also means you will not be rejected further, so that should boost some esteem.
Def get the IC and a support group like here at the site- they offer some at churches I know.
Just focus on you and what needs to be done for you
