I know that I will be ok. I am already feeling better having sent my reply:
I do not believe that divorce is the answer for us. I believe to the bottom of my soul that this is wrong, all of THIS has been wrong.
I know that divorce is what you want---what you need, and I have reluctantly retained representation, Lisa X. ****************
I know there shouldn't be emotion in this, but this is who I am. I also will accept the fact that this will interject guilt. I cannot pretend like this is ok with me----because of who I am.
I appreciate all of your input, and I think you helped tame me down a bit.
I won't let H spoil the day with my kids on Saturday, but it will just be even more awkward.
Me 45 M 25 yrs; T 31 yrs;bomb 8/15/06; moves out 7/18/08 D 18, D 14, S 12