Thanks friends and for the reminders about the roller coasters and cars and various other rides! I was feeling very anxious and sad about everything past couple of days... a little more grounded now that I'm back home. Corresponded w some good friends yesterday which helped. Tax call did not happen last night since acc't was running late, so doing it tonite. Been invited to a few parties when I get back to SF, so things to look forward to.. Still the random memories/feelings pop up...like just getting coffee this morning and remembering when H and I used to do that together, then lounge on the couch and talk.. little waves of sadness come on.
Talia - what you wrote about all very true...and issues w his family i do for the most part see as more to do with them than me. Can't take these things personally, i know. And you are right, I did not put the D in motion... but I've got to stop thinking about some of the things I did in my M that got us there, which creep up from time to time and I feel bad. But there are others in same situation who would not have walked, I need to remember that.
Not sure what to do w all my 'stuff'. I am keeping most of furniture - which I want - but it'll be weird to have wedding china and stuff like that ..maybe i'll just put in storage and sell at a later date. Lots of reminders which may be hard..
