here we go again

[Jstar]

I am so greatful for these two young babies and my dear d18 who sent me a contratulations gift, tears to my eyes for the sentiment.

h went and bought groceries, i put the list outside, he left groceries by the door. he first asked if i wanted him to bring the stuff in or leave it at the door. i said whatever works for you, dang that hurt, he chose to leave by the door, i didn't want to break down in front of him.

i'm not really how to proceed:

d2.5 and i are supposed to have our bonding time on saturdays for soccer, but i can not do it alone with nbson, as hard as it may be for me, i think as a 180 have h watch son while we are doing our girl stuff.

it's going to be so difficult for me, we will appear as being a family but not at all, ive heard that comment echoed in many posts, no one would know we are separated on the brink of divorce.