Nervous, probably. If I really analyze this and I have been contemplating this for a bit...whenever I actually pose the big questions is when she answers it's all over but the division of assets.
She tells others it is over this summer, that she will file then.
So a huge part of me says everytime we really discuss things the answer I get is that after months of change and effort to be the best spouse I can be is that, good for you, good for your relationship with the children but I don't care.
So imagine if you will, 20 hours of conversation, when everytime we have a deep conversation it comes down to basically hit the road jack.
That's why I am nervous. I understand the entire concept of Retrouvaille is to change the communication dynamic....but I swear (and I hope I tragically wrong on this) that we do communicate and the answer is that everytime we communicate the answer is your out.
I did receive a call from one of the presenters of Retrouvaille tonight, seemed like a nice guy. Answered some questions I had. I look forward the unknown.
So one answer is trust me, it cannot get worse than it is. I pray for the opening of her heart a little bit.
TBL now equals "Toward Better Love" M-44 W-42; 2 kids; married 11 years 1st bomb 10-08, reconcile 12-08 2nd bomb 8-09, moving toward reconcile 3-7-10
