CTH, I'm at 16 months now. Three weeks divorced. In a better place. Still a roller coaster, but more of a kiddie roller coaster rolling up then down, not too high, not very deep. Still have my moments, that's for sure but overall calmer, more acceptance. Relieved. Done with it. Done with her.
Now to heal.

Gardener

"My soul, be satisfied with flowers,
With fruit, with weeds even; but gather them
In the one garden you may call your own."
Cyrano deBergerac