here we go again

[Jstar]

there is a ton i don't feel good about. every time i think of the situation i'm a blubbering mess. love the post partum baby blues.

i've been kind of stuck lately. took cab with newborn and 2.5 yr old. me all by myself loaded the car seats into cab, both kids took son to get his jaundice test, took cab to hospital where i left my car, but battery dead, latch for hood broken so took cab back to our house.

We are outa groceries, and i problem solved all day how to get us there, no cabs, can't afford cabs, home delievery of groceries to expensive, h has stroller otherwise i'd just load kidos up walk to the store pick up some stuff to get us by.

me doing that all on my own yesterday 7 days after csection, oh no pain anymore. stopped pain meds days ago,.

today d2.5 got bath and washed her hair
8 day old boy got sponge bath
i showered
fed dogs and cats
did laundry
Who needs help, well i do with the weeds out front and my car but everything else is eh ok!

h's script now is : i want a divorce, i heel my void of you with someone else, yes i love you but.....

i sent him one msg today that said i really don't know what to say to you i'm lost for words(since he did nothing to help us yesterday)i sum it all up this is gross but..me using a sock to soak up the blood since i'm out of sanitary pads)

he replies: i have to head over to your side of town let me know what you need i'll pick it up for you.

i have not responded yet. i'm really disgusted by him just ignoring us for days. granted i did something very stupid the last time he was here and he went off, i'm filing ect.