The journey begins

[ClingingToHope]

It's my night with the girls, but it's not a normal night. D11 is at the theater with W rehearsing for this weekend's play.

So it's just me and D7 ... except now that the weather is improving all the kids in the apartment complex were outside playing. Three girls around D7's age were outside so I walked her out to say hi.

Now she's upstairs playing with a girl and her brother. I went over to their apartment to introduce myself.

D7 is really excited so no worries.

Weird thing. I was doing dishes and starting to build up a little hope that I haven't seen W's "wish list" yet. No news is good news right? Then I remembered she's been tied up with costume stuff with the play for the past two weeks. That comes to an end Sunday and I'm guessing she'll then begin focusing again on the divorce.

I really thought at 10 months I'd be stronger than this. Maybe it's the fact April is usually a big month -- my birthday on April 2 and our anniversary on April 27.

I've come up with plans both days so I'm not home moping -- but still I keep thinking, you know maybe these days will mean something. Then I try to tell myself to knock it off.

How was everyone else at 10 months separated?