Ruined, Quick note - gobs advice around here typically mean you are NOT doing things the way you need to! You can infer that a lack of advice means you are on the right track!! Not a HUGE consolation but you get the idea.
Its OK to have weak moments... last time I check you are HUMAN... Right? Give yourself a break! Its alot to take in and the grieving process takes tons of time. You will slide through all the phases more than once - and stay in each one for periods of time - some times you will get stuck in more than one at a time - its all OK. Feel everything for what it is - honor the feelings. Just don't let them guide your decision making!
You are going to be ok - and we are here to help!!
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ME28,WAH30, M 5YRS, T 7YRS ,OW/ILYBNILY/SEP 9/09 Served with D papers 6/6/10 Current
Not a HUGE consolation but you get the idea.