Jack - I'm just pissed.. I pissed at the whole lot that has been dealt me and that I have had a role in creating.

I posted the L thing because I really wanted to vent and let everyone know what was on my mind.

I don't think you hate me Jack and I know that you are trying to make sure that I really think things thru before I make any calls re my M. I know you do this because you care Jack but I did take it as an attack. Right now I just need to step away from all of this. I'm 6 months in, do not see a lot of saved M's, I'm dealing with some many issues at the same time. I know I need to let go and let God but Jack every day I look at a women that I love deeply and one that I hurt deeply and it is hard.

"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter".
"Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!"
"Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans