I've hit a wall.. Now what?

[talia]

Aver - You purchase the DVD set and it comes with the diet plan and all the workouts. I borrowed them from a friend because I spent all my money on shoes! The system is very easy to follow - the diet is awesome! You can get a pull up bar that goes over the top frame of any door - I noticed they sell them at the Walgreens by my house. I'll pick one up in a month or so...

The workouts are BRUTAL - but it feels really really good to work that hard! I couldn't work out today - I can barely move today - I'm going to do some pilates tonight - I hope that loosens everything up! This "pain" is only temporary - and it hurts so good! If I end up looking 1/2 as good as the people on the TV I'll be the happiest person ever in 90 days.

IC last night was interesting. She suggested that perhaps I should end my friendship with spy. Its doing me NO good and he seems to be making an effort to talk to me about H. I try to change the subject and he goes back to it. She feels that its a very one sided relationship and I need to seriously evaluate what I'M getting from the friendship. I was struggling with that question yesterday, as he kept sneaking into the conversation things I don't want to know about H. I finally stopped talking to him - He keeps upsetting me and making me over think things. Time for me to put some distance between him and I - better for my PMA. As I evaluated what I get out of our "friendship" its clear that I really get nothing from him. No need to keep that up!! The few benefits I DO get could be things made up by other people in my life with whom I share those connections.

Overall I'm in the middle of this place where I WANT to move on and move forward and just leave H in the past... BUT I'm also feeling SUPER bad about being divorced and losing the person I love. IC says that's totally normal and a good place to be... Moving in the RIGHT direction!

Have a great day everyone!!

T