Am I in the right place? Need advice and support.

[Clife]

I was not F*****G some other dude as you so nicely put it. We never had sex. Im making no excuses for what i did, it was wrong, and i hate what ive put my H thru.

But 9 years of emotional distance is very damaging to a relationship. I was not listing his faults, i was detailing the relationship as it was. I was in effect a single mum for 9 years and thats what i was describing.

I need no reality check, i'm aware of the intense pain ive caused. Everything i do is to make amends, everything.