((FM)) you are not stupid - He is. First of all that thing he did on the phone was total passive aggressive crap meant to hurt you. Seriously! And in front of the children, asleep or not. You have an enormous job being an at home mom, of a special needs child and a toddler, and a homeschooler. MOst people wouldn't be able to think straight in that situation. And to get no support from H on top of that. Think about it. You are total supermom and get no respect for that. Don't take him being a jerk personally. HE is acting really awful but don't put yourself down because of it! You are also not stupid for loving your husband and your family and trying to hold it all together.
I'm so sorry you are going through this. TIme to work on your self esteem. WRiting out that toxic list was a great start - to seeing things clearly. Now when you aren't so tired, go back and look at the list and start writing out small changes you can make. And think about something you can do to boost your self esteem. You deserve it.
