How (and who) to expose if OP is not married

[4luv]

I had an interesting day. My MIL invited me to lunch and a business meeting she was having with some web designer so we met up today. Lunch was great and the business meeting went well too. I love hanging out with my MIL and she has also offered to design a new business logo for me because she LOVED the cake pary favors that I did for her bday party. She also thanked me for being so supportive of her business ventures when other people have not been as supportive. She is a GREAT artist!!

Anyway, husband has been calling throughout the day. Some calls I answered, some I did not. I actually didn't know it was him that was calling because I was ignoring my cell phones all day due to just wanting some quiet time (I am still decompressing from the weekend!!).

The last call I answered from husband he was asking how son did with the new babysitter and then started telling me about this job that he is applying for. He asked could I update his resume since I was the one that did it in the first place. The job that he is applying for is closer to my parents house...3 hours away instead of 6 hours away. The rest of the convo went like this:

H: With this new job I will be able to see son all the time
Me: Yep, I guess so.
H: So what do you think about that.
Me: Nothing. I don't think anything about it.
H: Stop doing that 4luv
Me: doing what:
H: what you are doing...not saying anything.
Me: What am I suppose to say. I said yes you would see son.
H: unless you moved to another state that you mentioned moving to before
Me: no response
H: Y are u not saying anything
Me: if you want to say something then say it.
H: laughing...but I like to see what you are thinking first.
Me: well I am not thinking anything. you need to say what you have to say
H: Well, I am not sure how to say it or even what I really wnat to say. Do you want to get your own apartment.
Me: no. not right now. I am working on paying off credit card debt. that is my first priority.
H: Yep. that is my priority too. Well...do you want us to live together? I mean, what are we doing.
Me: (long pause) I don't know. I really don't know right now. With the way things are right now, No.
H: I F'd up. I want a home...family. But at the same time I want to start fresh. What are we doing during this separation? Are we dating?
Me: I want the same thing...to start clean, home, family but I don't think these are things I can talk about right now. In regards to dating others, I am married...PERIOD.
H: Are we dating each other? Are you gonna come visit me during the summer or at all? What are we doing
Me: I don't know. I can't start anything until I know that you are serious with your actions. I really have to go know but we will talk later.

I don't know how I did with this conversation. I am not prepared to handle these type of conversations. I am trying to DB EVERY time I talk to husband and usually I would be open and honest with how I feel but I feel like I have to keep those feelings close to my heart in order to make husband work if he wants me and our marriage. I don't want him to think that he can all willy nilly ask do i want to live with him and BOOM we are back together. I have been through too much for him to think its that easy. We haven't even done HALF or a QUARTER of the work for us to discuss that topic. I don't know. I am scared of another conversation coming up and me saying to much. Yes, I want my marriage but I can't come to him...I need him to come to me. To work for me!!!