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Hello OP, and Jack 3 Beans..and the curious..... and the eavesdroppers, LOL!!

Hello OP,
All is well, took husband to doc, they changed his cast. Will not see him for a month; most likely will change his cast one more time. They took a total of 20 stitches out of both sides of his broken ankle. He's got a plate that contains 9 screws in it; and what looked like a "renegade" screw on the other side, but was necessary to bring the shattered bone back together. He's doing well, and will be fine; of that I am very glad.
I'm no longer worried about the financial situation, there is nothing I can do except trust God for the outcome as I have always done.

OK, Jack, LOL!!

I love you.

I would assume this is the kind of love that does NOT get anyone in trouble, LOL..that is the type of love I hold for all people. I love you, too, but refer to statement above.

I love people, don't care where they come from..to me they are important, have feelings, and need things at times.
My husband wonders about me, at times...he has his ideas about people, I have mine. We are opposites when it comes to dealing with people. I'm more outgoing, like to talk, learn and observe. He's more quiet, at times not much of a people person; doesn't have much patience with some of the situations that I end up in the middle of, that involve people and their many problems. He claims he doesn't believe in the deep way I look into people and their situations.
Yet, at times, he will "pick my brain" to get my take on something he's seen or talked to someone about....so I must be doing something right.

You come across to me as a man who's been at this for quite awhile, Jack. You're one of the few men who "get it", and were willing to do what it took to bring your marriage back together. (Each man here on the board is a "rarity", no kidding; I've seen many men who would just leave because it is too much for for them.)
Apparently, you got what you had to do rather quickly; and learned the lessons far ahead of your wife. You've developed yourself..and have reached the place where you are content in the circumstances that you are in for now.
Sometimes, you wish she'd "hurry up", but intellectually, and within your heart of hearts, you have total understanding that this will finish in her time, and not yours.
You're direct, blunt, straight to the point; you care about people, but their lines of thinking frustrate you, sometimes.
In all honesty, though, you're a good mentor, are patient with people..and an all around good person in real life.

At the risk of inflating your ego; more people look up to you than you think and they follow your journey with interest. They're not only watching your progress with your wife, but they're watching YOU too; in every post you put up.

There's something to be said for someone who will lead by example, and you do that..walking the walk, and talking the talk.

That's my "take" on you.

I admit to a curiousiness as to why you came back after so many years away.

Nothing wrong with that. Not too many come back this way once they've left.

It's sufficient to say that one of my many missions here on this earth is helping people; whether through the medium of the internet or face to face..I am there for anyone that God sees fit to send my way, because they need help, they need love and they need guidance; most of all, they need understanding.
Everyone knows at a certain time of their lives what they have been placed here on this earth to accomplish during their time on this earth, and my purpose was crystalized during my time in the tunnel. I had been doing my work long before the tunnel, even before I knew for sure..but it is nice to know for a fact what you are here for.
With that said; I was sent back here, partly to illustrate the ending, and what it could be like..but as that of an individual, not a married person; and partly just to help.

This is part of my work, and it will be completed before I leave again; this time for good, never to return.

I actually forgot this place for a very long time after I left it. What prompted me to remember was my friend whose husband has just gone into the tunnel as of two months ago; I remembered what I wrote, plus, I got the impression/feeling that I also needed to come back to finish some unfinished business.

I have to admit I actually fought the pull; I'd gone into the archives, but wasn't finding what I needed at that time. I didn't ressurrect my old name then..I left again for a couple of weeks; fighting the idea, as I thought I'd progressed far enough NOT to be of ANY help to anyone in this area; knowing my memories were fragmented, and mostly gone.

My time is limited; and I knew taking it on would be consuming.
But He makes a way where there isn't one, and when He sends me out, He helps me make the most of the time I have; even down to helping me write and counsel.

I obeyed the call, ressurrected my old name; and came aboard once again, wondering what anyone would think about me coming back to the surface, but banishing those thoughts, and bravely coming forward.

I was honestly unaware that people would gravitate to me once again, like they'd done so many years ago, and so I was really surprised at the reception I'd gotten.
Meaning no offense, and not because I am anyone "special"; but there is a positive energy in me that draws people toward me. I have NO idea what it is, but it has always been there; and has always been a part of me.

I do not do anything to "cause" this; it just happens. I have no illusions about it nor do I contain any "ego" about it; I just accept it for what it is. It's worn like a cloak, and has been with me for so many years, that I don't pay that much attention to it being there.

I had a few questions of my own, that did get answered; and for now, I will remain until I'm sent back off again to do something else.
But, when I leave this time, my story will be complete, no more will be left to guesswork...that's the only certain thing I do know this time.
I have questioned whether I would need to actually be in Piecing, but have gotten it clearly, that I'm needed here, even if only to listen, and comfort at times.

Many things continue to come back from that time, but only for help purposes..and the right questions have to be asked to bring those memories back alive for a short period of time.

Being here, and answering quesions along with the others, will NOT damage me, or cause me to "relive" that time in my life..this I know; as it has been integrated into my life, all events having been accepted; and healing attained within me.

I've been told people see me as success because I'm still married..and I wish they'd understand that if my husband had chosen to leave; he would have left, and there would have been nothing I could have done about it. Just as I had a choice, so did he. I had NOTHING to do with him choosing to stay; that was up to HIM, not me.

I'm successful because I successfully navigated my journey, alone, for myself, and came out a better person that I ever would have had I NOT taken the journey.

Circumstances would have set themselves up to drag me around full circle again, if I had not completed this necessary trip to insanity and back.