Soaring Solo 2010

[ClingingToHope]

Gardener, I keep wondering if, before this is all through, I should open myself up one final time and say "I don't want a divorce. I never wanted a divorce. If there's one thing I've learned in the time away it's that, yes, we aren't perfect for each other but we are better together than apart and there's too much here to give up without fighting for it."

I mean I've bought in so completely to the giving her time and space and focusing on myself that I haven't shown her a bridge back to me if she wanted it.

But then I remember reading the few success stories on here and most of them only happened after the LBS had completely given up on the R and entirely moved on.

And I also remember how painful it was in October when I opened up only to be swatted away and again in December when we spent several hours together for Christmas and then a week later she pushed me on the D.

Your W knew, had to know, that you would work on the M if she was willing. Now that it's over, she may be changing the history in her head to justify carrying it through to the end.