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[forward]

feeling better. Looking forward to a weekend w/family. V-day will not be so difficult....frankly each year it has gotten easier.

[forward]

So V-day came and went and I kind of forgot about it.

Dark is healing me.

[sleeper]

This year I didn't help kids shop for X for "V-Day" as they were with her that week and neither did OMH. So, X got NOTHING from our kids for V-Day.

The really cool part is it didn't even cross my mind until kids mentioned it to me after the fact.

[HeartsBlessing]

Forward, from what I can tell from reading, you're actually doing quite well. Still having a few bad days, but those are not as much as they were; and you're reaching a point in your life that no matter what happens you'll be fine.
That's not an easy place to get to for anyone.

Time does heal all things; and you'll continue to gain a different and much better perspective as time goes on.

No one asks for their life to be torn apart, but it's not what happens, it's how you deal with it that matters the most.
And strength usually comes from a place you never knew you had until you desperately need it.

Take care.

[forward]

I have gone for a long time without any contact except for essential contact. And I think it does help--but again, helps YOU and that it is hopeful to focus on that.

HB, X has been dirty and unshaven for YEARS now, so no sense of rock bottom there.

[forward]

I have been reading a book about getting past your breakup. Although things do change when you are officially divorced, I do think that the GAL advice is the best advice you can possibly offer to someone in such a situation. Learning to take care of myself has been good for me, and I realize that I still have a long way to go!

Got another one of those long looks from X. At this point I don't pay it much heed. I continue to converse only as it pertains to our D and basically am just enjoying life and trying to learn from this experience and come out of it as a better person.

[forward]

Well, not much to update when you have minimal contact. I am doing well. The gray weather is making things dull.

I do have much to think on these days.

[forward]

I was thinking that X and I have not had a meaningful conversation in 3 years, and we haven't had a conversation on anything unessential in 3 months now.

I think that when I consider the sulking, angry presence that dominated our lives for so long, being alone is actually better.

[forward]

I have gotten used to being alone. Had lunch w/Crushee--feelings are less intense. Maybe that is good. However, I think he is more interested now. Why are things like that??

I spent more time being sick and I am seriously looking forward to spring.

X continues to seem angry, so I continue to be dark.

[peacetoday]

its the dance --with crushee
peace