You know, this really is the most unbearable crud at times.
Yep, it is.
Read something earlier today that said "the best way to say 'I love you God', is to live your life doing your best. The best way to say 'thank you God', is by letting go of the past and living in the present moment, right here and now." It went on to say that whatever life takes away from you, let it go. When you surrender and let go of the past, you allow yourself to be fully alive in the moment. Letting go of the past means you can enjoy the life that is happening right now.
Maybe it'll be easier to do after we get through the "crud" that you mentioned.
"Always go straight forward, and if you meet the devil, cut him in two and go between the pieces." - William Sturgis, clipper ship captain, 1830's.
