WAH in MLC with PA

[DiamondGirl]

I stayed home today... D3 and I have been hanging out...

I feel as if this marriage has drained me of everything I was, and now that I've been emptied I've been replaced for a less empty model. That I was no longer good enough to work with to rebuild it.

I know he didn't intentionally go into a MLC. But I keep feeling that if I had only been aware of it, that I could have done something to prevent it from being so damaging to everyone.

I feel like he'll never crash and burn.. never hit bottom... and will live happily ever after with someone as damaged as him... in their fantasy land.. And I will be left without the one person I felt was my soulmate... that thought I was just fine the way I was... and that could tell what I was thinking before I said a word... as I could do with him..

That's a once in a lifetime connection... and I feel I had a big part in ruining it...