Newly Separated and Heartbroken

[ALJ]

Hello everyone,

Unfortunately, I have not posted in a while. I have been without a computer for two months and I have been very busy with my 3 girls and school. I guess I have not been divorcebusting like I should have been by being consistent with GAL. I was just chugging along trying to be positive and fighting to keep stress and anger, concerning my sitch, out of my life.

Just to recap, my H and I have been separated for 10 months now. He moved to Georgia to start a clothing line and entertainment company after turning into a stranger and announcing that he had not loved me in over 5 years. He has drove up to visit the girls for all of the major holidays and their birthdays. We had major communication issues in our marriage along with not making each other a priority in the marriage. There was no infidelity on my part. I'm most certain that he had grown emotionally attached to other women and my mind was not in the place to do anything about it, because of my own hang ups and issues with myself.

Fastforward to today. I have found out that a girl that was H secretary in his company last year before he moved away has moved down to Georgia where he is and she is now the co-owner in his new clothing line. She is 24 and lives in the same apartment complex as him. I saw her picture on the clothing line website and began to question him about her when he called to talk to the kids. That is when the truth came out. He claims that they have not been physical and that they are just good friends that go out together and have a good time with each other. I am no fool. He is obviously emotionally and possibly physically involved with her and there is probably more to the story.

I know that I let my emotions do the talking when we discussed what was going on between the two of them. I began to pressure him to tell me if he loved her, if he was happy with her, etc. He finally exploded and said " I don't know what I want", so I backed off and told him that he did not have to worry about me saying anything to him about her anymore. I was mad, confused, and hurt and it showed in my voice. We hung up.

Around midnite, I got a text from him and it said this;

"I just wanted to let you know that I'm sorry for everything. I never wanted to hurt you or try to hurt you. I never thought my life would turn out this way but it is something, regardless of my reasons, that I have to live with. Is it easy? No. And it does hurt not being able to see the kids grow on a daily basis because I have been just somewhat there and I know that I owe them an apology. I know its hard on all of you because although I may not show it, it is hard on me also. Its like everything is a mess and it feels like I'm the blame for it, even though I have said that we both are. Maybe in life, I haven't made all the right choices but whatever the choices made, I am going to have to live with the consequences. If it is right or wrong, I believe God will one day show me the right way. Hopefully not when its too late. Sorry for bothering you."

I have not responded to him because I am so full of emotions. Should I still validate by just saying "I understand" ? Should I not reply at all? I have to re-dedicate myself to divorcebusting.
Things have changed in my life personally and I continue to work on myself everyday. I still love my H. Any advice is appreciated.