Eric, I can say this,.... think things through before you act. Good rule of thumb is 24 to 48 hours, often you might feel differently after you sleep on it.
Of course comming here works too.
Time and Patience my friend, these 2 things need to be your best friends, get to know them well.
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Expose yourself to your deepest fear; after that, fear has no power, and the fear of freedom shrinks and vanishes. You are free.
