Seems like my W has Gone Dark just as I am Going Dark. Go figure! Oh well, I'll keep doing what I'm doing and I'll see her this Friday morning to sign papers with the D mediator and I'll be DBing my butt off for the little time I'll see her.
I know that my WAW hasn't felt "connected" to me and has been planning this for 8 years but how can they just seem to give up 24 years like it is nothing. Do they think that there is something better out there? Are they just tired of trying? How do they rationalize that this is the right thing to do and that God and their heart are telling them that it is the right thing to do? So many questions, so few answers.
She talks about not having a "switch" that she can turn on to be "IN love" with me but it seems like she has a "switch" that she has "turned off" to not have any regrets about what she is doing and to not have any "romantic" feelings toward me. "The kids will be fine" she says, "they're adults now". What a bunch of crap. I don't care how old you are, it hurts no matter what when your family is ripped apart.
I have great things going on in my life right now and can't share any of it with the W (because she'll just want more in the settlement) and that is really hard!
Just needed to vent,
Ken
Me48 WAW46 M24 yrs S24 D21 D19 EA disc 6/09 2nd EA Fall 09 I move out 11/12/09 W and I switch 1/14/10 D Filed 3/17/10 W moves in with OM 6/8/10 D Final 6/21/10
