Fast track to her divorcing me

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Well my silver lining was just covered up by a dark cloud.

I found out she was looking at CatholicMatch.com. And no, I was not spying. Needless to say this has me worried.

Good part is that she does not appear to be a subscriber there asking for dates so I should not read too much into it. It may just be about girl or church gossip etc. But she has a lot of Catholic girlfriends who may be trying to convince her to replace the heathen she divorced. I have no clue at this point but I do not like where this may lead and can't do anything about it except GAL and go back to detaching.

Guess I better prepare myself for some more pain down the road.
And yes I am a hypocrit and deserve to be called one. But she swore to me that she was not looking for a man. She just wanted to be alone and was not putting herself out there (her words).

I will continue to try and make myself a better option. It's all I can do.