Struggling with Hope

[Cadet]

But I will begin to live my life as if I was single.

This is good

I will date

This is bad.

go enjoy myself.

This is good

I cannot sit here a just wait while she is off emotionally (and who knows if it is physical) finding satisfaction with another.

Why not?

but that should mean that I need to crawl into a ball

Definitely NOT. That is why you have to work on you. GAL. Continue to be the best DAD you can be.